salman khan

i am a fan of this handsome heartthrob since childhood. the thing i like about him is that he has been through so much and still standing strong and entertaining us. he is an inspiration. salman shows us how to not get affected by the wrong image that the media highlights. he is always fit and fine. salman has given great performances in to bollywood in tere naam, jaaneman, hum aapke hai kon, kuchh kuchh hota hai, andaaz apna apna, hum dil de chuke sanam and many more. he is involved in social work too. salman had set the trend of being bare chested, showing off his perfect biceps and abs. he has won great awards for his work. its sad that he is still a bachelor and hasn't found love. salman has fans worldwide for his killer looks and personality. i wish him a very happy birthday.

acne

i am writing this post because i have always had at least one pimple. people have been suggesting me whatever measures they knew. that is irritating. what harm does a pimple do? they say it makes me unattractive but i dont care. its a natural thing. let it be.
though, when i have a problem with it i take measures and it becomes fine. why do people poke me with irritating suggestions?
please, stop doing that. my skin is the oily type. so, its prone to pimples. why make a fuss about it?
this post might seem useless to my reader but i want to write down my feelings. dont look for logic here. feelings and logic are not always together.

my long nails

those were the days,
i was happy and gay,
sorrow was at bay,
life was like may.

well, this post is a metaphor. its about the time when my life was fun. i had great hair. i was fit. i took good care of myself.
i have always loved decorating nails. my nails were known to be very pretty and artistic. the picture you see here is of my own nails. i had really long and maintained nails with beautiful paint.
but after a storm in my life, i had cut my nails very short. now, i dont wear nail paint. i feel uncomfortable if my nails grow long. i feel uneasy.
now, when i look at this picture or others, i have doubts if these are my hands. from nails to everything, i am no longer the pretty girl. sigh.

sultan

most probably, i would never have got to interact with this great guy. this post is about sultan, my internet friend. we know each other through twitter. we live miles away. he is a kind person though i misunderstood him first. he is open-minded and a good catch. thank u sultan for being my friend.

satire (2009)

When i look at my friends on facebook,
There are many.
But when i go on with my routine,
I see no one around.
It might sound funny
But i am afraid ti say that it is true.
People surround you when you have a happening life
But no one cares to say "hi" when you dont.
There are many people like me,
But the world is too big to make them exist in a small circle or a line.
Laugh at it or make a sigh,
I have stopped feeling all that .
Me is what matters to me,
And i am not a liar.
You may ask me to shut up,
I aint there to take up suggestions from losers in life,
Go, do your thing,
I dont need you in this strife.
A phase did it all,
You dont have the permission to ask more.
I am happy alone,
Atleast i dont make myself feel insecure.
Mind is where everything resides,
You may want to slap me or take my hand and say "hi",
I am not begging for your friendship,
Neither m i a great ruler of the words.
Be it happiness,
Be it despair,
Whenever you'll need me,
I'll be there.

ghazal by jagjit ji

mere darwaze se ab chand ko ruksat kar do
saath aaya hai tumhaare jo tumhaare ghar se
apne maathe se hata do ye chamakta hua taaj
fenk do jism se kirnoN ka sunahri zewar
tumhi tanha mera gham khaane mein aa sakti ho
ek muddat se tumhare hi liye rakha hai
mere jalte huye seene ka dahakta hua chaand

lady gaga

many hate her. many love her. many laugh at her.
i admire this lady. she has guts, passion and sense. i love her make-up and clothes. she is an inspiration. i love the "peace" tattoo she has.
did u know that University of South Carolina is offering a full-time course titled "Lady Gaga and the Sociology of Fame". that means something!
she is an exhibitionist. she is multi-talented. she sings, performs, designs, writes, etc.

i love her attitude.

an experience

i have been rude to people at times. i did not do that for fun or even intentionally. it was my nature. my mother always told me that is a flaw. but i never considered it wrong. i used to be rude to anybody who was wrong. i used harsh words when i wanted to teach someone a lesson. my intentions were always good because i believed that rudeness makes people vigilant. but i was wrong.

a few days back, i was taking my car out of the parking lot. i was moving it back, the road was vacant. and a woman just came there from somewhere. she was walking very fast. my car was not near her. she just started abusing me for not stopping the car. she was so rude. i was almost in tears. it was not my fault and she blamed me for something which i did not do.

i moved my car out and stopped for a moment. i was feeling terrible. i thought why was she rude. then after thinking a lot i realized that it's just inside the person. i should not be affected by their rudeness. rude people are complexed and try to make you feel inferior.

i wont ever be rude now! life taught me a lesson.

women

we are the homemakers,

mothers are us,

teaching is also what women are famous for.

we like glittery clothes,

to drape our softness in,

woman are pretty,

you cannot deny that.

we are good friends,

we make our parents proud,

yet some families don't welcome our birth.

we turn houses to homes,

and try to set good examples,

but we are not in a safe world for ourselves.

always treated as the second sex,

a woman is still in her form,

we just expect humane treatment, not treatment like god.

we make the world an aesthetic place,

care about others,

still the world is not a safe place for women.

we lack physical strength,

but mentally are stronger,

is loving in return of loving a very difficult price?

even after facing all the evils,

we don't lose our grace,

we are vital for existence, still the world is not a safe place.

often used as incubators,

we don't take revenge,

hoping that the world will know the truth one fine one day.

a random post

children are one of the cutest creations of the almighty. in the Indian context, children are supposed to be another face of god. they are innocent, cute and friendly. all they want is love. every girl dreams of having children in future and spend time with them. children face many evils of the society such as bullying, rape, theft and many more. every parent should guard their children because their security is totally their responsibility. many times, it is seen that people give birth to children but they don't look after them. the reasons are many ranging from a baby from extra-marital affairs, unmarried couple, etc. finally, it is the child who suffers. what is its mistake? it should not suffer because of careless parents.

parents often get irritated by a child's behaviour. one should not expect a child to be perfect and think that children will understand everything that comes under common sense. children don't have experience like elders. they are new to the world. sometimes, they don't even get to know why they are being yelled at.

home

everyone feels the need to go to a comfort zone at the end of the day. after work, one needs to relax and lie down without any formalities. home is the place where we don't feel lost. everything is according to us. we feel at our calm and we can rearrange anything we feel like.

there is a need to meet your loved ones after toiling hard outside aka running the rat-race. if the atmosphere of a house is not joyful or light, there creeps in some kind of imbalance in the mental state of a person and even insecurity. after all, everyone expects to go home to a happy family. people often pet animals to fulfil this need as animals are mostly cheerful. there is also a need to be welcomed home. moreover, when children return from school, they expect to see a happy environment at home. an empty house feels better than a cold one.

a house can be called as home only when it qualifies to be warm and there is love between the members living in it. on the contrary, cold behaviour and the scarcity of love leaves the purpose of 'home' unfulfilled. people living in such atmosphere always love to go out and never like to spend their time inside.

thereafter, we can't find it funny when people spend a fortune on feng shui techniques to have a good flow of energy in their houses, gather positivity and make it welcoming.

old post about technology

there is technology that empowers me. if used purposefully, gadgets can uncomplicate life. dictionary in the phone can be very useful. even websites like twitter, blogger, wikihow, etc are great helpers. i wake up with the help of the alarm set on my mobile phone. it vibrates with a song. even the car is a great marvel of technology. a personal computer is a must for everyone. it should have a good internet connection, otherwise it is of very little use. heaters, air conditioners, geysers, etc. have become very important. one should never forget the technology for stuff like straightening and curling of hair. in the end, internet is on top of the list of the technology that empowers me.

thats what the nineteen year old me wrote

most of the times, people call me "cute". people say that i am attractive. my mother says that i am likely to succeed. people have blind faith in me. i would rather say that i am a creative person and have my own rules to live life. i am choosy about whom should i be with. i have a weakness for fragrances. i like to treat everyday as a festival. i have another weakness which is bright hues. i do a lot of things to stay energised throughout the day.i like to eat some chocolate when i am low. i love to "make up". people call me nerd. i don't like the idea of self-praise but i cant help it. i have surfed through up and downs and now i can call myself matured. i dont believe in things like falling in love. i am a happy single. i am obsessed with my hair. i am spiritually inclined. i prefer being classy than trendy.

well, i don't get along with most of the people around. i am unusual, quirky and wacky. i like challenges and casual debates. i dont like to follow the set rules. people copy my style and whatever they can. according to me, i am as rare as diamonds. i am also outrageous. its not easy to admit but i have insecurity issues which demand love every now and then. i hate sarcasm.

i am a hard-core perfectionist and dont like compromises. many people call me a mean girl or evil. though i tend to have revengeful feelings but never mind. worldly norms dont mean a thing to me. i dont mind making fun of myself. i like to lead a healthy lifestyle. i am well-determined to do whatever i want. i am down-to-earth and clean. i love the night and the morning. say, dusk and dawn. i love growing roses. i am a pure soul. i like to study my subjects. i like painting. i am satisfied with my life. i dont party. i like solitude every now and then. i am into philosophy.

i tend to feel guilty often. i like to help others. i have always been treated like a princess at home. i love cars and nail paints. i cant resist purple nails. i like to appreciate art. i am attracted to colors and detailing. i like to wear different types of fabric. moreover, i love referring to fashion magazines. i like white dresses. apples are my favourite fruit. i dont mind exotic things at all. i like to order and make people work. with good company, i dont mind travelling. but i cant stand stupid people.

i like to pen down my feelings. i am caring enough for myself. i dont make friends easily but if i do then it is for life. my friends find me fun to be around. it may be because i hate monotony and try to do new stuff. i do and speak whatever i want to without giving consideration to others. i am sympathetic towards aged people. i can truly understand the pain others feel. i am brave and like to be independent. i have no hard feelings towards anything. i am patient for the things i really want.

i am not into things like marriage. i dont want to live a boring life. i feel that everyone should be inspired by fictional character and try to live king-sized. well, i dont know if i am a modern girl or not. i try to take out the best out of the old and new.

i am in love with words. i can be impulsive about it.

i am a true Scorpio woman. i believe in mental strength. i am passionate about my beliefs and like to make changes. i am responsible. red is my favourite colour.

i love music. i like "breathe" by Anna nalick. i really admire Gwen stefani. Kelly clarkson is one of my favourite singers. i dont mind grooving to the tunes by timbaland. also, i like Amy winehouse, rihanna, avril lavigne, Sara bareilles, U2, Hilary duff, Christina aguilera , etc.

i love to watch dedicated actors like abhishek bachhan and beautiful ones like Penelope Cruz.

i love Chinese food, reading, ice-cream, mountains, birds, etc. i am not brand-conscious. i like tiny artefacts. i like to do yoga. i love being with funny people. i cannot resist beautiful ornaments. i love to take photographs. i am a feminist. i love the colour yellow. i cannot live without having cakes every week. and footwear is what i crave for. i like abstract designs. i am drawn towards Edward Cullen.

this is just a rough draft. i need to work out more on this.

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i feel weak, i feel sad, i feel like crying. i cannot share my emotions with anyone. i want to move mountains. i want to achieve something but do not know the way. actually, i have lost my way. i look at passers by and envy them. they have a purpose which i lack. they have companions which i dont. i feel guilty for being like this. i have a desire to do so much. i want to find out what should i do. i have lost all hope. i am kind-hearted. i am compassionate. i have a passion but for what?

wrote this a year back/ silence is golden

my life is not stable. it is full of confusion.

today, in the afternoon, i was driving to the gym. i changed the radio channel. i surfed through all of them but no song of my choice was being aired at that time. so, i stopped surfing and started listening to a talk show for women. there was a doctor and an rj who were talking about silence as they received a mail on this topic. the ladies were saying that if we are silent then we retain more energy. according to them, we should not talk much. silence is golden and peaceful. if everyone understands the importance of silence then the world would be a harmonious place. being silent makes our thought processes strong.

well, i tried to practise being silent and my day was so peaceful. all my confusions were cleared. i felt energetic and did not waste time. i worked more. it was a wonderful lesson for me and i would like to pass it on.

an old write-up of mine

if I could change one important thing about India then I would obviously think about the most important problem in the country. India, is famous in the sense that people know that many poor Indians die of hunger. poverty is a major drawback of our country. I would love to see India with an equal share of wealth for all. the riches are happy and would dislike this idea but the poor. only the poor know that this is the only hope left for their lives.

this might seem impossible because of the huge population of the country. one might consider that how will the country distribute wealth to such a large population? well, this is very difficult.

anyway, with such an approach the poverty-struck families will not die of hunger.

this is a dream just to give food to the poverty-struck. right now, my mind cannot find any other cure to this problem.

thats what i wrote on teacher's day

a good school teacher must have a goal to teach and should know what is to be taught to the kids. she should have a great deal of patience. she should try hard to teach. the children should be keen to learn from her. she should be frank with them and be a role-model for them. she should give in a non-threatening and enlightening atmosphere. she should be able to motivate her students to achieve something. she should make it sure that every kid learns.

summer 2010

the summer is on its peak. i always want to have a drink in my hand. i want shade when i walk on the road. i want to sleep in an air conditioned room. i miss the rains and the winters. i accept that this is the summer season. i cannot alter the weather. i can keep hydrated and intake lemon, mango and melon. it is nice in the morning but the sun makes it worse then. this is what nature does to us. we pollute it and cause global warming. then the earth makes us suffer. what a pity that most of the people still are not aware to save themselves. they will be killed by the heat. moreover, everyone would be. we have made our future bleak. sad. water crises also makes me scared. well, all this is fate now. we can only hope and pray for good.

girl

its nice being a girl. you love diamonds, flowers, dresses, cooking, make-up, etc. but sometimes its bad. people dont respect you. people hate you. people kill you. people rape you. you get abused. you get wasted. what is good in all this. well, i must admit that it takes a strong and real man to respect a girl and give her all she deserves and a pervert to hate a girl.

girls are so nice. they are helpful, cheerful, loving, romantic, etc. if they are not then please reconsider what you do to girls. after all that ridicule who will be like that. its not their fault. well, what all can be said? then people start calling you a feminist. i dont feel bad. i like being a feminist.

so, my fellow women, rise if you ever fall. fight back. feel the power inside you. dont waste your time with perverted people who are a bane to the earthlings. let god take care of everything. but keep doing what you are supposed to do. pursue your passion. it gives you happiness. good day!

poem

when i look at those beautiful roses,

i wonder what happens to beauty.

it is plucked or withered,

sometimes, it gets crushed under the feet.

when i look at truthful people,

i wonder what happens to the truth.

is it hidden by lies or manipulated by liars,

because it has become a strange way of life.

when i look at caring eyes,

i wonder how many of them are there in the world.

just a handful,

leaving apart the natural ties.

when i look at beautiful sights,

i am worried about how many more would i be able to see.

the world is full of adulteration,

and beauty is rare to see.

2010

what happened in 2010 with me is what this post is about. as the year is ending, i would like to say goodbye to it and look through what all happened. though, there are many days still left for it to end. and i may not be able to recall everything that happened. i cant say that the year was totally bad or awesomely good. let's talk about January. i was motivated enough to start the new year with optimism and hope. i prayed to god to give me a good year. well, i was so motivated and inspired by Mr. robin sharma's book 'megaliving' that i stopped going to college. i never like my college and when i become ambitious and positive, i don't do the things i hate. so, there i was at home. i had just learnt how to drive and used to go driving everyday. i used to read much. this motivation made me dress-up nicely everyday, pray to god, meditate, exercise and all the good things i could think of. so, January went quite well. a good start it was. i did what i wanted to do. although, everyday i used to die a little inside when i thought of my career, college and education. then came February. all that i can remember now is that i started going to college out of fear. i was scared. i just wanted to do with the first year and leave it there. i was thinking of joining some other course or starting with something new. i was lost like anything. and worried to death. it was cold and i remember going to the morning classes and daydreaming all the time and waiting for the college to get over. as it is i had no friend in my college then. it seemed like a prison to me. so, February was super boring and dull for me. march! well, i don't remember much about march. i was having holidays and all i used to do was watch TV, read, etc. that's all i remember. so, march was also boring. i had exams in April. so, i was busy with exams as they take one and a half month with all those breaks,etc. but remember that i hardly studied. i was not motivated at all. i used to live in some other world. i remember how i was trying to change my sleeping hours during my exams. i used to sleep at my normal time but wake up early in the morning. and it is funny how i felt sleepy during the exam. maybe, this was a way to say that those exams didn't mean much to me. April was OK. not so bad. my exams continued till may. may was just about reading and lazying around( i think that's all i have done this year!). may, was fine. smooth. lets talk about June. June was good. i learnt how to swim (although i suck at it) and enjoyed it. and i went on a trip to dharamshala. it was a nice trip. a nice place too. my result came in July and hopefully i had cleared all the exams. though i was a bit disappointed with the score which went from 87% to 61%. and i took English honors which i always wanted to opt for. i remember watching many movies in July. this movie-trend is still continuing with god's grace. so, July was also good. i can hardly recall august. my classes started and i was enjoying English. though i had to study sick subjects like psychology and sociology too. i went to swim everyday. movies were also watched by me. that's it. September, sorry, i cant recall anything. even October is hazy. November, my birthday month, is always expected to treat me well. i turned 20. which was OK. i am no more a teenager. that is also OK. the month was fine but it didn't treat me as well as i had expected. so, November was this way. December, still going, is fine. i had a very few working days because of exams. my exams are going well because i did not take the one of the sick subject. never mind. i have hope that December will treat me well and it better not let me down. so, you can imagine how boring 2010 was for me. but i have hope that 2011 will be a nice year and treat me well. "hope sustains life." but lets not be too hopeful. let's take away the good memories of 2010 to 2011 and leave the bad one here. let's hope. let's pray for a good year ahead.