2010

what happened in 2010 with me is what this post is about. as the year is ending, i would like to say goodbye to it and look through what all happened. though, there are many days still left for it to end. and i may not be able to recall everything that happened. i cant say that the year was totally bad or awesomely good. let's talk about January. i was motivated enough to start the new year with optimism and hope. i prayed to god to give me a good year. well, i was so motivated and inspired by Mr. robin sharma's book 'megaliving' that i stopped going to college. i never like my college and when i become ambitious and positive, i don't do the things i hate. so, there i was at home. i had just learnt how to drive and used to go driving everyday. i used to read much. this motivation made me dress-up nicely everyday, pray to god, meditate, exercise and all the good things i could think of. so, January went quite well. a good start it was. i did what i wanted to do. although, everyday i used to die a little inside when i thought of my career, college and education. then came February. all that i can remember now is that i started going to college out of fear. i was scared. i just wanted to do with the first year and leave it there. i was thinking of joining some other course or starting with something new. i was lost like anything. and worried to death. it was cold and i remember going to the morning classes and daydreaming all the time and waiting for the college to get over. as it is i had no friend in my college then. it seemed like a prison to me. so, February was super boring and dull for me. march! well, i don't remember much about march. i was having holidays and all i used to do was watch TV, read, etc. that's all i remember. so, march was also boring. i had exams in April. so, i was busy with exams as they take one and a half month with all those breaks,etc. but remember that i hardly studied. i was not motivated at all. i used to live in some other world. i remember how i was trying to change my sleeping hours during my exams. i used to sleep at my normal time but wake up early in the morning. and it is funny how i felt sleepy during the exam. maybe, this was a way to say that those exams didn't mean much to me. April was OK. not so bad. my exams continued till may. may was just about reading and lazying around( i think that's all i have done this year!). may, was fine. smooth. lets talk about June. June was good. i learnt how to swim (although i suck at it) and enjoyed it. and i went on a trip to dharamshala. it was a nice trip. a nice place too. my result came in July and hopefully i had cleared all the exams. though i was a bit disappointed with the score which went from 87% to 61%. and i took English honors which i always wanted to opt for. i remember watching many movies in July. this movie-trend is still continuing with god's grace. so, July was also good. i can hardly recall august. my classes started and i was enjoying English. though i had to study sick subjects like psychology and sociology too. i went to swim everyday. movies were also watched by me. that's it. September, sorry, i cant recall anything. even October is hazy. November, my birthday month, is always expected to treat me well. i turned 20. which was OK. i am no more a teenager. that is also OK. the month was fine but it didn't treat me as well as i had expected. so, November was this way. December, still going, is fine. i had a very few working days because of exams. my exams are going well because i did not take the one of the sick subject. never mind. i have hope that December will treat me well and it better not let me down. so, you can imagine how boring 2010 was for me. but i have hope that 2011 will be a nice year and treat me well. "hope sustains life." but lets not be too hopeful. let's take away the good memories of 2010 to 2011 and leave the bad one here. let's hope. let's pray for a good year ahead.